by TA York
Joshua 24:15
15 “But if serving the Lord seems undesirable to you, then choose for yourselves this day whom you will serve, whether the gods your ancestors served beyond the Euphrates, or the gods of the Amorites, in whose land you are living. But as for me and my household, we will serve the Lord.”
16 Then the people answered, “Far be it from us to forsake the Lord to serve other gods!”
Isaiah 55:8
“For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways,” declares the Lord.”
One night I was praying and asking why it seems that no one wants to get close to me.
I attempt to get close to my ministry brothers. I call them, I talk openly, and I listen. I might find a brother to talk to for a couple of weeks. Then it seems I use up my welcome and people distance themselves (I don’t mean in a bad way).
The above scripture is what I heard. Isaiah 55:8 was spoken first. Then Joshua 24:15.
The Lord said he moved them away so my focus will be trained on Him. He gave me confirmation the next day in a message. “Some people have a calling, in which the person of God needs to totally rely on God.”
Our God has to be best friend, sustainer of life, provider and our trust in Him is complete.
Example:
The doctor called one afternoon. “Check into a hospital right away. The test shows you could collapse and die at any moment.”
I heard the Holy Spirit, “I’m not done with you yet.”
I stood on Romans 12:1, living sacrifice.
Friends got really mad at me for not listening to the doctor. Yet, God took care of me.
Here I am. Still alive.
That’s when I was questioning God. Absolutely no one was available to pray with me face to face. I felt hurt over this. I poured myself into the ministry and not one person could pray with me for 1 minute.
God said, “my ways are not your ways.”
The Holy Spirit said, “I need you to rely on me. Only me and no one else.”
I was reminded of a verse that we have a jealous God.
I read the story on Corrie Tenboom. Locked up in a Nazi concentration camp. Locked in solitary confinement, all she had was Jesus.
Joseph, in a foreign land. No other believers to confide in. Only God.
A hundred other stories of Jesus and a lone with unshakeable faith. If one day, I’m left alone with only Jesus ( no other believers). Then where will my faith fall?
Please don’t misunderstand. I am no better than anyone. I don’t separate myself. I have a strong desire for fellowship. I’m being strengthened today. My resolve is being sharpened today. For maybe tomorrow, I won’t have the beloved around me.
Yet I hear God clearly, “choose this day whom you will serve.”
Jesus I will serve you with all my love!
God bless
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